Ok guys.. Last week I told myself that I was going to be more on top of this blogging thing and my first goal was to write a blog today… Sunday. Usually, my Sundays are pretty relaxed with a big chunk of free time in the afternoon to spend as I see fit, so naturally, I thought this would be a good plan. Today on the other hand… was quite busy.. but definitely a good busy.. So here I am at 9pm writing a blog. Hope you enjoy! 🙂
Years ago, in my faith journey, I was sitting in a small Jacksonville coffee shop discussing the details of what it meant to live a compelling Christian life. This coffee shop was so obscure that I cannot remember the name of it, or even tell you clearly if it is still open. I was sitting on a couch with my friend from Bible college taking in all the sights and sounds of the part of town that Christians are not supposed to be hanging out in… much less at late hours. Above me were several playing cards all stuck to stark black ceiling which angled into walls filled with local artwork, exposed brick, and giant chalkboards covered in glorious depictions of the culture and how it was being interpreted by those who were at the shop. Music was permeating the walls from the bar next door, and there was a sketchy “back room” for which VIP access was required.
Across the room, I saw two very tattooed and very drunk dread-headed Rastafarian wannabes. The table in front of them all trendy and hipster-like with its antique mismatched chairs was occupied by a couple you would expect to see on an album cover by just how well they seemed to fit the alternative counter-cultural music scene.The man behind the bar, a rather boisterous fellow who I am sure used to be part of some 80s hair band, had greeted us with open arms asking all about our lives and our favorite coffees and recently had dropped by our couch for a second to ask about our favorite type of marijuana too. This particular man was wonderfully friendly and immediately told everyone he met how much he loved them. The only other people where those shrouded in a cloud of cigarette smoke just outside the front door. This place had all the ingredients to make many Christians squirm and uncomfortably scoot right out the door as soon as possible.
As I was sitting there with my friend who was asking hard questions and challenging the faith he had grown up in and blindly followed thus far, it hit me that even though I was nearly finished with a Bible College degree I had only just begun to scratch the surface of the love Christ has for us and what it means in our relationships with other.
My friend (We will call him Steven.) was discussing with me the concept that “God is love”. He had recently been very broken by some mistakes his family had made and people who had a very skewed view of what love really means. As I was trying to encourage him to continue to seek God even though those who had taught him of God his whole life had acted nothing like the people God created them to be he said this to me. “Kayla, you will never understand this completely because when you came to church, the body of Christ became the family and unconditional love you had never experienced before. Falling in love with Jesus and His church is what kept you here on this earth. For me, it’s different. We always had Jesus. We always had ‘the body’… and we were deeply involved in it. In the past year, all that I knew as certain in ‘the body’ and in family and in love has been ripped away. I am falling to pieces and I am scared to ask Jesus to catch me because those who claim to love like Him are the ones who pushed me over the ledge. Christ gave you everything, but right now, to me, it feels like He is the one who has taken my everything away.”
Boom. There it was. The truth at the core was that the “body of Christ” was not living, breathing, or loving like Christ had commanded. ( I will say there were several people who were still loving on Steven. He was just having a really hard time seeing it.)
God is love.
Those 3 simple words have bewildered me and astounded me ever since that day.
This week I have been reminded of that truth again and again and I am so thankful for the fresh brush of Gods love I feel painting the picture of my life.
If God is love, that means that all these things that we call love on the earth.. The things that give us the warm fuzzies, that make our souls smile in places we did not know we were there, that cause a child to jump into the arms of her parents, that lead us to fall for someone so much so that we would be willing to join with them for the rest of our lives, and that make our hearts to flutter at the thought of them are all made possible by God himself.
Love is a pulse that runs through our world and we all feel it at different times in different ways and we all … for lack of a better word.. LOVE it. As humans, we LOVE love. It is as simple as that.
Imagine a world with no love at all. A place so dark and so selfish that love simply does not exist.
Now imagine a world full to the brim of the pure love of God. Every heart so full it’s nearly bursting.
Which one would you prefer?
As I spend my days living and learning the love of Christ, I see more and more how our human rendition of it pales in comparison. He gave it all … to His very last breath.
Walking down the sidewalk hand in hand with a tiny Cambodian child today, I felt God’s love overflowing in my life. Peace and joy were overtaking me and I could not even begin to consider worrying. Knowing God loves me perfectly brought me perfect peace, because having perfect love means perfect trust. It means casting out all fears. (1 John 4;18)
These kids I spend my days with need the love of God in their lives. Each hug, smile, high five, or pinch of their little brown noses shows them a tiny glimpse of who God is and how much he loves them even when they feel unworthy.
^The above statement leaves me with a huge responsibility though. If I am a person who knows Christ and just what His love has actually accomplished for each and every one of us, I must ,then be an imitator of Him. My actions, moods, motives, and plans should reflect only the love Christ has filled me with. The love of Christ should be the sole force that compels me. (2 Cor. 5:14) What these kids see in me, they relate to how they view the God I say I represent.
I pray God have mercy and grace abounding on us as “the body”, because I personally know I don’t always live compelled by God’s heartbeat. I pray we are “bound in the spirit” (Acts 20:22) like Paul to show the world and the faces we see every day just who this Christ is we claim to follow.
Or responsibility is big, but our God’s love is bigger and He loves each and every person He created even when they choose not to love Him back. Pray with me as I continue here in my “Jerusalem” that God’s love for His children be my guide. Read 1John again.. and when you do.. allow a fresh wave of God’s love to flow over your life and fill in all the spaces that had become void and dark. Be overwhelmed and awestruck. God deserves it. He is worthy of the worship it will induce.
More of You, Lord.. and less of me.